Anger.
Since the beginning of the Patriots' dynastic
run with Bill Belichick, football has witnessed all manner of bad
behavior, from drunk driving to murder to suicide, the spectrum of
malfeasance is so broad that it threatened to take entire teams down
into the gutter with it.
And
there we were up in the 6 weird little states that comprise New
England, Belichick and team owner Robert Kraft with a stern hand on the
wheel, not a care in the world as our beloved team stomped everyone in
their path - on the football field, that is - shut out from the horrors
that enveloped other franchises...
...and then, yes.
Anger.
I am angry. Perhaps I have no right to be - but as a fan of football, a
fan of the Patriots and, most importantly, a fan of humanity and truth,
I am angry that on an early Monday morning, a young man that I never
knew, a big man, a linebacker for a semi-pro football team was in a
situation in which he was powerless to use his strength and his heft,
then someone fired a bullet into his brain.
I am angry
that someone had such hate in his own brain and heart that he would
stand behind this powerful yet powerless man and purposely end his life.
I
am frightened. Frightened that this young man who is considerably
younger, bigger and stronger than I was overwhelmed and executed. How
many men did it take to do the job? One? Two? More? Did he die
immediately or was he left to bleed out in that lonely patch of weeds?
The
details, we don't need to know. That is for a jury to hear, see and
live with for the rest of their lives. All we need to know is that
a young man is dead, and someone killed him.
Was that
someone Aaron Hernandez, one of his friends or someone else altogether?
Regardless, 27 year old Odin Lloyd will be laid to rest soon, leaving
many family and friends with a huge void in their lives and hearts.
Everyone
assumes that they know Hernandez to a certain extent, the "Rainmaker"
who wears tattoos all over his body as badges of honor, of courage, and as tributes to his late father -
either the fans that know him as a skilled pass catcher and count on
him to deliver on the football field, or the close friends who know him
in his personal life, the ones who call him "Chico"...
...but
who knows Odin Lloyd? To most of us, he's some dude that turned up
dead in some weeds near an industrial park, a bullet fired into the back
of his head, execution style - and the guy that got Hernandez in hot
water.
This is wrong.
Lloyd didn't ask
someone to put a bullet in his brain, he didn't force someone to stand
behind him and end his life. Whoever is found to be responsible for the
death of the man, should and will be punished, and if it turns out to
be Hernandez, then the pro bowl quality tight end will have to trade in
his Patriots' silver and blue for whatever garb is appropriate for
prison wear these days.
Whoever did this got themselves in the hot water.
Odin
Lloyd played on high school football fields for the Boston Bandits, a
semi-pro football league where players have to pay for the right to
play, in essence - some in hopes of being noticed by some lower level
scout and given a chance to play for pay in the Arena League or maybe
even in Canada.
Most are just regular guys, trying to get by and not ready to give up on the game they loved as kids.
"Firefighters,
dentists, accountants. These guys play for the love of the game and for
the actual physical contact." says Tom Torrisi, the CEO of the
well-established New England Football League, of which the Bandits are a
charter member.
"Things are hunky dory, well and
good, and this ruins everything," Torrisi continued, "The sting is
devastating. This isn't the NFL; we're not equipped for this."
Nobody
is equipped to deal with something like this - not even the murderers,
who don't stop to think that they are taking someone's son, father,
brother from them, not until it's too late - if they did stop for a
split second to ponder this notion, perhaps it wouldn't have happened -
but it did, and in the end all that anyone can hope for is that the
killers are caught, though that won't ever bring back the dead.
Same
for the people who know about the murder and try to cover it up.
That's a crime as well. Obstruction of justice, accessory after the
fact, what have you. If Hernandez was involved, he needs to pay the
price. If not, then we'll still cheer for him on Sundays...
...but
it needs to be remembered that Hernandez is not a victim here - not in
any way, shape or form. He may not have pulled the trigger, but he
knows something about how it happened and, thus far, he isn't saying.
But it bears repeating - Even if it turns out that Hernandez is being
set up, as some Patriots' fans are speculating, he still is not a
victim.
Victims don't choose to put their careers,
friends and newborn daughters on the line, choosing the plaudits of punk
friends over the love of their family or the adoration of their fans.
They don't hand over the spoils of their charmed lives for the violence
of the streets of their youth. Victims don't choose handguns and iron
bars over touchdowns and millions of dollars.
Victims die in fields. Victims get a knock on the door in the early morning hours to be told that their son had been murdered.
Victims
lie on a cold stainless steel table down at the coroner's office while
their families and friends shed tears of grief - victims sit in
courtrooms and watch helplessly as the man or men that they thought they
knew and loved are sentenced to prison for the better parts of their
lives - because when someone commits a murder, it ruins lives on both
ends of the gun...
...and whoever killed Lloyd is a
punk and a cold-blooded murderer. If that turns out to be the Patriots'
star tight end, then I suppose no one really knew Hernandez - and at
least one person wishes he'd have never met him.
If
the people we love are stolen from us, the way to have them live on is
to never stop loving them. Buildings burn, people die, but real love is
forever.
Odin Lloyd, dead at 27.
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